Jelly Beans and Silly String

last post... seriously

2006-03-27T17:04:00.000-05:00

ran down to the office... our lease is good until the last day of may... thank goodness.... so now i'm not as stressed... lol...

now for real... i already started my new blog. you can see it under my profile... k. later.

last post....

2006-03-27T15:50:00.000-05:00

well, carlee is napping.... i just ate lunch.... and i'm drinking lemon flavored iced tea... yumm... if only i had a sunny porch in front of my own yard to sit at and drink it.... anywho.....

i think this is going to be my last post on this blog... not that i'm not going to blog anymore, because i am... i'm going to start a new blog. i live my life in phases i suppose. even my calendar is erased monthly... at the end of the month, i look at everything we've accomplished, erase it, and start new with the next month, write out everything planned out so far, and when bills are due, etc....

this sunny florida phase of my life is coming to an end.... actually i have to go down to the office and see when our lease is up.... almost had a panic attack last night wondering if it was up at the end of april or may.... because if it's up at the end of april, we need to schedule our pack out ASAP and figure out where we're going to live for most of the month of may... but i'll go down and do that when carlee wakes up....

hubby is underway again.... this week will be lonely... or maybe not.... my friend A called today, she and her hubby just had a baby girl about a month ago. :) so hopefully we'll hang out this week. ANYWAY.....

back on topic... i will be changing my display name so that my next blog is a little more annonymous except for family and friends who will know it's me... i always feel a little hesitant to write about our navy life... dates, things that happen, etc... so... maybe i'll share a little more... okay... so i'm off to start a new blog... here's to the next chapter of my life...
:D

ugh

2006-03-16T09:59:00.000-05:00

i woke up this morning feeling really weak... i thought it was going away.... grrrr i can't wait for this cold to be gone... and i hope carlee doesn't catch it. :(

2 months and counting....

2006-03-15T16:24:00.000-05:00

time.... i feel like we're running out of it.... 2 months left here in Florida. wow. and there's still too much stuff to do... and i'm stressing out... not tony though... no, not tony, he never stresses out. but i do... i was able to turn in my passport application today finally, after they get back, we then have to return with a bunch of other stuff to send off for our visas.... yay... i'm trying to figure out when we'll throw carlee's first bday party here, when we're going to be getting our "pack out", when we'll head down to texas (where we will throw her another 1st bday party), when we'll have to make our way to Italy.... agh!!! and tony's underway... so there's no communication, except for my email after email to him which he can't reply to.... but that i still feel the need to write them lol....

other thoughts... i'm getting over my cold, finally... i forgot, that was another thing tony gave me when i got home, lol.... i cleaned the dishwasher today... i had always thought the dishwasher would stay clean since there was constantly soap in there, but then i saw that commercial for the jet dry dishwasher cleaner saying that it defeats the purpose to clean dishes with a dirty dishwasher... so i went and looked, and i did notice some gross stuff, so i bought it and used it and am quite happy with the results.

carlee had a taste of freedom while in texas when my mom bought her a walker, and now there's no going back.... lol... i bought her the same one for here, but since we have carpet, she can't go anywhere, and now she will not go in it or her jumperoo which she used to love sooo much. now, she's all over the place, crawling, cruising, getting into everything. keeping me on my toes.

my last thought for this entry: it's amazing how much different my life is since i first started this blog. i used to have alot of time in the beginning... and one of my original intents of starting this blog was to get better at my writing... BUT yeah, the complete opposite happened. i have no time to hardly write much more than "hey fam & friends, this is what i did today" about once a week. lol... and it's always unedited, badly written, but whatever. i just thought that was funny.

this is actually a rare somewhat long entry, but now... carlee's trying to eat cardboard, so yeah.........

he's a keeper

2006-03-14T13:12:00.000-05:00

i can't believe i forgot to blog about what i had intended on blogging as soon as i got back online!

when my grandma and i arrived at the apartment monday (6th) afternoon after the loooong drive from texas what did i find when i walked in the door? a super clean house, new area rugs, home made cookies, balloons, and ROSES!!! he couldn't be there to welcome me home since he had duty that day, but it was such a nice surprise! he's so wonderful...
:D

7th Heaven rerun...

2006-03-13T20:15:00.000-05:00

is what I'm watching... but I'm really waiting for that show New Adventures of Old Christine... I never liked her on Seinfield, never really liked that show perioud, but this show looks hilarious. Carlee is already asleep, amazingly since about a half hour ago... which would of been nice if Tony was here... but he's underway :( Tomorrow, Carlee has a DR appointment, and I have to go by PSD on Tony's orders to turn in my passport paperwork... I'm hoping it goes through in time so that Carlee and I can leave with him, if it doesn't we'll be moving over there two weeks plus after him...

show started. it's funny so far... i was going to write more tonight... but eh... w/e. i think i'll zone out and watch tv... chat on aim... miss the hubby.... yell at the cats... and go to bed. :)

I heart texas

2006-02-28T15:17:00.000-05:00

so, carlee and i have been in texas for a little over two weeks now... it's gone by fast. less than a week left before we start our drive back to florida. the weather was freezing the first week we were here, but today it's beautiful. we've been really busy, trying to fit visits in with all the family, and i even got to hang out with some friends from highschool on saturday. i really needed that night, it was my first night away from the baby in a looooong time. carlee is playing on the floor with the remote, successfully changing the channel every now and then... haha... she's learned alot since we got here, she can now wave, shake her head no, and use the walker my mom bought her like a pro. she's grown alot just in the past few weeks. i miss texas. i forgot how much i love it here. i drove to georgetown today (next to austin) to pick up my grandma, and i fell in love with texas' scenery all over again. it was a nice morning for a drive, and the baby was quiet the whole way. i like all kinds of music, but since i got here, i've found myself listening to country more than anything else. i guess it just matches how i feel right now. sometimes i wonder what it would of been like if tony and i had just stayed here after graduating... lived a simple life, have jobs, be near family, you know... some days i wish we had chosen that path. i'm simple.. i'd love to be near family in our small town... but then again, if we had made that decision, i'm sure today i'd be blogging about wishing we had left this town and done something with our lives....

new tv came in today

2006-02-09T21:07:00.000-05:00

the new tv came in this morning... it's quite big. 52 inch widescreen HD tv... yeah... I thought it was a little over the top, but tony's been lusting after one for two years now... haha. so carlee and i watched her cartoons this morning, she was quite fascinated by it... her favorite characters were suddenly twice as tall as she is lol... then my soaps... then we took a walk... i let her swing at the playground... so pretty much uneventful... except for the tv...

while i was walking carlee there was a loud bunch of girls and their kids at the playground... i could of walked over and said hi, but i figured why bother... it's hard for me to make friends... and i'm leaving in a few months anyway... ugh... i've made a few really really good friends here in the past two years... i'm going to miss them. :( i'm getting a little anxious about moving to italy i think... tony thinks there's still plenty of time left... but i keep telling him there's not. i'll be home feb, then we only have march and april to get everything taken care of. overseas screening, passports, packout, leave time.... it's a little overwhelming to me, but apparently i blow everything out of proportion for some reason... anywho... tony will be home tomorrow... he'll enjoy his tv... saturday my grandparents will pick me up... and i will be gone... and he will probably have a gaming party with the new tv... i know he will... i know my husband too well... i'm freakin exhausted... and i'm rambling.. so i'll shut up now... haha... good night.

yeah, i'm still up

2006-02-08T22:17:00.000-05:00

ok, so i'm still up... it's after 10 and i'm waiting for tony to get home from work... i'm watching the grammys... tell LLCoolJ to keep his tongue in his mouth LMAO! and why is everything rap-ified? come on! leave rock alone! don't rapify it! it seemed like they paired a rapper up with everyone and every song... don't get me wrong i like rap... once in a while... like how much i like peanut butter... it's okay to have once in a while... the flavor is okay... but shove too much in your face and it's like you're choking on it! ahh! Do you think they did that because of rappers' politically edginess? I do. Think that they think more people will watch? well... I was watching only because there was nothing else on... and now it's 10:40 and tony's home and changed the channel to news. good night! :D

my new 'do

2006-02-08T22:13:00.000-05:00

i'm really tired tonight and i look it... but here's my pic of my new hair cut :)

woohoo

2006-02-08T20:35:00.000-05:00

Got my last fillings today! ugh! finally... lol... I don't know how many she did today, but the front side two hurt like hell when she gave me four shots... "the front shots hurt the worst" she said... yeah, thanks.

well, tony had the first part of the day off so we could take care of all this... my dentist appointment. Dr. signed my papers, so we took them over to the overseas screening girl. Tried to get our passports done, but the guy was gone and we waited forever and he never showed up... I got my hair cut today. Finally! I've been wanting to for a long time, and finally got the chance to do it. I love it. anywho... this is just a quick update. Tony had to go into work at 4:30 and still hasn't called for me to pick him up. :( grrr... and carlee's still up, because I know as soon as I put her to bed and she falls asleep, he's going to call and say, "ok I'm ready." lol
:D

Rules of Jacksonville

2006-01-30T18:22:00.000-05:00

My friend Loopy sent me this, so I thought I'd share... and I added a few of my own.

1. You must learn to say the city name correctly. It is referred to as "Jax".
2. You are either a Gator or a Nole. There are no other schools.
3. Forget the traffic rules you learned. No one pays attention to them here. Merging, yielding, and right-of-way are completely foreign terms.
4. To find anything in Jax it is required that you know where the Regency Mall is. It is the Alpha and the Omega; the beginning and the end.
5. Directions to anywhere may, and usually do, make a reference to "the old Pic and Save".
6. The morning rush hour is from 6am to 10am. The evening rush hour is from 3pm to 7pm. Friday's rush hour starts Thursday morning.
7. If you stop at a yellow light, you will be rear-ended, cussed out, and possibly shot.
8. East Rd. meets West Rd. on Beach Blvd, but they both run North and South.
9. Normandy Boulevard, State Road 228, Cecil Field Road, Maxville Road, and Post Street are all the same road.
10. Hartley Road, Shad Road, and Hood Road are all the same road. Hartley Road is the western part of the road, and Shad Road is the eastern part of the road. Now don't be confused about this Hood Road. This is the West-East part that is in between Hartley and Shad, not the North-South part that starts out as Old Kings Road South, changes into Hood Road South, and ends at Losco Road.
11. Construction is a permanent fixture in Jax. The barrels are moved around in the middle of the night to make the next day's driving more exciting.
12. Watch for road hazards such as deer, skunks, dogs, barrels, cones, cows, horses, pot holes, cats, pieces of other cars, single shoes, truck tires, raccoons, squirrels, rabbits, crows or vultures feeding on any of these items.
13. The minimum acceptable speed on JTB is 75 mph. Anything less is considered downright sissy. This is Jacksonville's version of NASCAR.
14. Never honk at anyone. Ever. Seriously.
15. If you are in the left lane, and only going 70 in a 55 zone, you are considered a road hazard and will be "flipped off" accordingly.
16. Ground clearance of at least 12 inches is recommended for city driving.
17. If it's 100 degrees, Thanksgiving must be next weekend.
18. There are only two seasons: Summer and January.
19. There is a Westside high school that has a confederate flag as its school flag, an image of a slave plantation owner as its mascot, and Dixie as its school song. Just accept it.
20. Ponte Vedra is to Middleburg as oceanfront is to double-wide.
21. If you choose to live in Orange Park, or, God forbid, Middleburg, plan to leave for work at 4am and return home around 11pm. Otherwise you may get caught in what can only be described as "the world's longest left-turn lane".
22. Don't get here late and expect something to eat. After 9pm, your choices are Famous Amos and Village Inn.
23. You can buy a million-dollar condo downtown on the river, but you have to drive 10 miles for a loaf of bread, and never after dark.
24. The Landing is an interesting place. Every time you visit, there will be a whole new set of restaurants, fewer stores, and less parking. Hooters, however, is a permanent fixture.
25. All city council decisions must be signed off on by First Baptist Church.
26. You can't drink alcohol and see naked girls at the same time. But, if you agree to drink Diet Coke, you can see them fully nude.
27. North Philips highway. Don't go there. Unless you are looking for motels that charge by the hour.
28. Learn all of the lyrics to every Lynyrd Skynyrd song.
29. If you like southern-style barbecue, there's a restaurant on every corner. But they all close at 9pm.
30. Convenience stores are EVERYWHERE, unless you live in a million-dollar condo downtown

Mine:
31. School zones are two blocks long... one block before the school and one block after it.
32. No restaraunts know what white gravy is, don't ask for it, they will look at you like you are stupid.
33. If you are from texas, or love Tx BBQ, make sure to avoid the mustard BBQ sauce they serve here....
34. If you are mexican or "texican" do NOT eat the mexican food here, you WILL be dissapointed.
35. To register a vehicle, you must show proof of Florida insurance... To insure your car, you have to get an "inspection" verifying the condition and current registration of car. *See how to register a vehicle*
36. Fresh Fruit cost an arm per pound. Why? because Florida exports all of their fruit, and imports California's. (I just learned this info this past week)

that's all for now, I will probably think of more later. :)

6 more years....

2006-01-27T21:50:00.000-05:00

today, tony reinlisted... I'm so proud of him. I'm sure he had many second thoughts... :) he's so awesome.... Congrats baby! I love you!

i'm tired... i'll write more this weekend...

hmmm

2006-01-25T18:17:00.000-05:00

tony has duty today... :( i'm watching king of the hill... the episode where Peggy joins the "metalife" pyramid scheme... lol just chillen with my friends Ben and Jerry... haha, oh and Carlee too. she's keeping herself entertained right now though, surprisingly enough. :)

nevermind... now she's in my lap lol... night.

5+ fillings....

2006-01-21T18:07:00.000-05:00

Today I had another dentist appointment. :( Had five more fillings done... FIVE!!! grr... I hate it. I already have another appointment scheduled... I can't wait til this crap is over. Tony had duty yesterday, then today was a work day... we're so tired of it here. It's rediculous. I feel bad because I know work is sucking for him right now, and I can't do anything for him... Carlee was really good today. She even ate creamed spinach for dinner! (blech!) lol... she didn't seem to mind it though. Guess she's like her grandma eating that nasty stuff... haha...

Last night I was invited over to Loopy's house. She made yummy lasagna... it was SOOO good. Got to visit with friends for a long while. I'm jealous of E's html skillz... haha... and hopefully I'll be getting a sewing machine soon, and A is going to teach me how to use it, and then I'm going to help with her business, so that will be exciting. On a not so good note, another friend's son was in the hospital last night... it got pretty scary from what I understand, he had a really bad concussion, but the last I heard this morning, he should be okay. Thank God.

i'm back.... finally

2006-01-19T22:32:00.000-05:00

Today was pretty good, I actually accomplished something. I wrote up 6 listings for ebay. Some of Carlee's clothes she's outgrown. Starting them out at .99 I just need to get rid of a bunch of stuff. I've been feeling so overwhelmed because I have so much stuff I need to list on ebay. So today, I picked out ten things and said I would write those listings up and take it a little bit at a time. Well, Carlee let me do 6 but it's a good start. I'm finally starting to feel back to my normal self....

I just confided this in tony the other day... After Carlee was born, I didn't think I had post partum (sp?)... I didn't consider myself depressed... but just recently, like within the past two weeks, I woke up one day and just felt better, more like my normal self. And as soon as I felt like that, I realized how crappy I've felt for the past 7 months. :(

I realized I hadn't done much of anything beyond taking care of Carlee. I didn't cook, I didn't clean the house very much, I hated doing laundry, even hated doing the dishes... Tony was cooking most of the dinners, or we'd order in. At the time, it seemed so overwhelming to me... and I had absolutely no energy whatsoever... I was relying on several cokes a day to give me bursts of energy. A constant up and down cycle throughout the day... All of my attention and energy was spent on taking care of Carlee, I didn't have anything left in me... for the past seven months!

I still don't believe I was ever depressed. I didn't have anything really to be depressed about... overwhelmed? yes. completely unsure of myself as a mother? yes. Inadequate? yes. unattractive? yes. stressed? yes.

But I feel 1000 times better now. I can do the dishes again and talk to to Carlee in her highchair... I can listen to her crying fits and not feel like my head is going to implode... lol... I can do a load of laundry and not feel like the ceiling is going to collapse on my head. Which reminds me... I think there's still a load in the dryer... crap... guess i'm not over my scatter brain-ness. LOL... anyway...

My point is I'm feeling back to my old self... finally! Maybe I'm getting better at this motherhood thing... and quitting drinking cokes has helped alot too....

this morning

2006-01-14T11:04:00.000-05:00

so thursday I wasn't in the best of moods, and the news wasn't helping either... yesterday was fun though. :) I met up with K and L, we went and did a few caches, then met up with a bunch of other geocachers for lunch... then found a few more caches. I had fun, and it tired Carlee out. lol...

Tony got in this morning around 2:30 am... exhausted... and so was I because Carlee was having a horrible night... I'm hoping to go to a caching dinner event tonight... we'll see.

the local news tonight....

2006-01-12T17:03:00.000-05:00

a mother on trial for shooting her two sons...

a homeless man beat to death, 2 others hurt severely...

taxi cab driver murdered...

a couple found murdered in a nearby forest...

15 year old died after being struck by car (this happens ALOT here...)

huge cocaine drug ring bust...

Florida is trying to pass a law to make it illegal to sell violent games to minors... (don't get tony started) LOL...

Smoking while pregnant is a risk to your baby... No $h1t... "it can give your baby extra fingers and toes..." oh yeah, don't worry about her little lungs, or brain development... geez...

this is why i usually don't watch the news... i'm changing the channel right now. grrrr

Frustrations.....

2006-01-11T16:58:00.000-05:00

UGH! I'm so sick and tired of mail services slacking off! and this is from a receiver's perspective, not senders... I live in a third floor apartment... We had a Christmas gift from Tony's parents that should have arrived over a week ago... No notes on the door, no calls from the office, nothing.. and I know I didn't miss it, because I'm a stay at home mom... and I'm ALWAYS home. So, on a whim I decided to check the front office just in case... "Do I have any boxes here?" I asked...

"Yes ya'll do! The DHL lady brought them a while ago, and said she wasn't taking two boxes up to the third floor..."

Sigh... this AGAIN... Is it not their job to bring it up to my home? If I lived in a house they would knock on the door... This is the second time DHL has done this..

and even USPS has done it a few times before too... Which sucks because instead of checking to see if we're home, they put a "we missed you" note in our box (dated on a day I KNOW i was home...) And then we have to go drive to the post office to pick it up, which wouldn't be so hard if we didn't have only one car that the Hubby takes to work everyday (and works way beyond USPS hours...)

ARGH!!!! I know it's a long way up... I take the three flight trip every single day, many times with arms filled with a baby, or groceries, or boxes, etc. etc. etc. And I wouldn't even be so frustrated if the front office would actually call and tell us when we have things there... which I know it's not their job to do that, but why offer to let mail services to drop things off, if they're not going to notify the receiver?

AHHHHH!!!!!!! ok.... i'm good now. :)

Ugh.. now I'm not again. Tony just called... they're keeping him til 8pm... to do stuff that's not HIS job... GRRRRR I can't wait to leave this freakin stupid place!!!!!!

you know I never have one single subject...

2006-01-11T14:33:00.000-05:00

Tony bought me Dance Dance Revolution for Playstation2... I love it! lol... it's so much fun.. I still can't get past the beginner's level, but hey... :) We bought the mats off of Ebay.... **I LOVE EBAY!!** lol... anyway, we got both mats for 22 bucks... You have a center square, then a right, left, back, and up square... and as the arrows come up on the screen you have to step on that square. It's supposed to be like dancing, but it sure would take alot of hours of practice to look like you're actually dancing... lol... But it's fun.

I found another great deal on ebay last night. 3 nursring bras for 6.50 with 4.99 shipping... total that's less than I would pay for one at the store, and they're new with tags... However, I do wish SOMEONE would make prettier nursing bras... as soon as you put one on, it's like being instantly unsexy-ified... lol, that's another one for the dictionary... but they're necessary for a few more months... unless I get fed up with Carlee's current trick of biting me... she thinks it's hilarious.... yeah... funny...

I think I'm going to change the background here again... I don't really like the black... kind of too dark. I liked the light backgrounds better. Just thought I'd try something different.

UGH!!! we've been starting our overseas screening lately... OMG... Tony's got approved almost instantly, he just had to go get a checkup at the dentist... Carlee's got approved... Mine... well... yeah, NOT. The dentist won't sign off on mine until I get ALL my work done first. And I finally counted all the red marked teeth on my info sheet while I was at the office... yeah 12 teeth need fillings... still... OMG... So... I'm going to have to have around 4 more appointments to get that taken care of, and we're supposed to have our screenings done ASAP... :( great...

that's all for now....

2 very happy years...

2006-01-09T15:11:00.000-05:00

Today is our two year anniversary. :D yay! It's gone by so fast... it's been such a fun adventure babe, and I look foward to the rest of our adventures! I LOVE YOU SOOOOOO MUCH!!!

Ghost pics...

2006-01-07T23:01:00.000-05:00

These are our two best pics... the rest are just random pics trying to get the orbs.. lol... with people all over, tombstones, but no orbs... This is one of the hospital beds... gives me chills just looking at it again. The second is of a tree that was in the first cemetary. It's said to have a lot of sightings in it of a little boy... I took a pic of it, I wasn't really even aiming because it was too dark to see what you were taking a picture of anyway, but can you see the face? ugh! wow. I thought it was so freaky!

Ripley's Pics..

2006-01-07T22:48:00.000-05:00

Me in front of the Museum:

A Cannibal's "fork"... they didn't believe in touching the body they were eating, so they used this... ewww....

A "mermaid"... this was a bix hoax back in the 30s (I think.) This guy fused a monkey body with a fish body, and people believed it for the longest time, until he finally admitted what he did.

Replica of the world's tallest guy!

T-Rex and his breakfast... lol...

Those are a few of my favorites... I figured Blogger uploader out... I can only upload 1-2 pics at a time.. any more than that and it screws up.. grrr... lol

St. Augustine

2006-01-07T21:41:00.000-05:00

Yesterday we drove down to St. Augustine, the oldest city. It was so cool. I love it there.... beautiful buildings, right on the water, old timey feeling, cool shops, sightseeing... it's so awesome! Anyways, first we went to Ripley's Believe it or Not museum... and that was so cool. I'm easily amused, but even if I wasn't, I think I would still find it interesting. We saw a replica of the tallest man in the world, canibal eating utensils (yikes!) replica's of 6 legged cow, a rooster that lived for 18 months after being decapitated!, Elvis' hair, a huge ship made completely of Jade, matchstick art... Everything was so cool! and they had these hallways that you walked through, and there was a tunnel around you that spun... ugh, made us so dizzy! lol... I would definately go back. :)

After that, we walked to the beginning of our haunted ghost tour. It was sooo freakin awesome! We started out at this old hospital where the business is in the front room. We walked through the three other rooms. The first two nothing really happened... so I was starting to think it wasn't really real... then in the third room, the lady was giving her speech and the door opened about two inches!!! out of nowhere! and none of the other workers were out there! and nobody opened it from the inside either! So, I started to get a little freaked.

Then we all started taking pictures.... OMG! you should of seen what some people got on their cameras! You know on tv where they talk about those ribbon light things that are ghost energy? Well, a bunch of pictures kept showing them!!! I'm NOT kidding!!! And on others pictures there were a bunch of these little white orbs!!! We were all so excited!!! and the speaker was getting a little nervous too, she said there was hardly ever this much activity, but that it was probably because SciFi channel had been there earlier that day moving stuff around and testing the "hot spots" because they were going to be there the next day (today) for ten hours taping!!! and that the ghosts don't really like it when things are moved and/or changed!!!

So we were picking up a lot of activity on everyone's camera!!! Carlee started getting really fussy in that room too, so that freaked me out a little bit, because she was fine in the other two rooms, and fine again after we got outside! man! it was a rush... OH! and when we first got in that room, our camera batteries died out of nowhere, (and we had just charged them!) and as Tony was walking out of the room to get the extra spare set, a lady out there said, "That room drains batteries." Is that FREAKY or what!?!

This room was so scary... It had beds that the patients used to stay in.... actual hospital utensils they used to use back then... with no anesthetic OUCH! I can see why those spirits would stay there... man! it was all so scary....

after that we took a tour through part of the town... past by a haunted restraunt, and by two cemetaries. The first cemetary, I got a picture that there looks like there's a face in the tree trunk! I was excited because that was about the only good pic I got. We also got to hear a bunch of stories about the town, and one about the founder (his 2nd wife haunts one of the dorm rooms of a college there.) Man, it was soooooo awesome, and soooo much fun. I would go back and take the tour again in a heartbeat!

**Well, I was going to add pics, but Blogger.com is NOT working with me tonight! UGH!!!**

I got my blue star!

2006-01-05T22:18:00.000-05:00

I finally got my 2nd star on ebay... :) the blue one. it's for 50-99 positive feedbacks. I've been trying to reach it for a while. yay... other news...

We finally used the new jogging stroller tonight. It's cool, needs some breaking in still, and it doesn't fold down :( ... but oh well. I ran three times around the parking lot, which is not alot... it's less than a third of a mile... lol... i suck :( but oh well... i'll keep trying.

Carlee now has two teeth coming in.

i'm taking an online drawing class. i'm excited about it. :) it's being taught by a lady in the art group forum i joined on ebay. i'm looking foward to learning some stuff and getting critiqued.

We found out why my food in the oven always burns.... the oven had the wrong knob on it. The maintainance guy came and looked at it this morning and said it had the wrong temperature knob on it... good grief... lol.... these apartments... i swear... **sigh**

We took Carlee to the playground today. She loves the little baby swings... and then we held her and swung/swinged?/no... swang? whatever... it was fun... the stupid apartments. they have one of those playground things where there's an upper level and a slide and a pole, etc... well, on the upper level, one of the boards is missing so it'd be really easy for a kid to fall off... all they have across it is yellow caution tape... uh... hello? younger kids can't even read that, and for those that can aren't going to pay attention to it. How hard is it to freaking fix it? geez.... i swear! I'll take a pic of it tomorrow... we were annoyed... these apartments suck...

that's all good night :)

Magical Memories

2006-01-03T17:15:00.000-05:00

Well, I was feeling a lot better yesterday, which was good since we had planned on going to Disney that day since Christmas. lol... I felt great all day and so of course, I thought I was over it... then last night at the hotel it all came back and hit me. ugh.. it was horrible, not only did I feel icky, but Carlee had a rough night as well... she just didn't want to stay asleep! But we managed.. and now we're home resting up.

Disney world was sooo much fun! I'm glad we finally went, we would of really kicked ourselves in the butt if we left Florida without visiting Disney! We didn't get to ride any rides because of having a little one, but it was still fun to sightsee, watch a few shows, meet a few Disney Characters, and shop for little carlee. lol... It was beautiful. I'll post a few pics here, but all the Carlee related ones are on her site. :)
(I know my shirt is huge... lol, but there was no way I wasn't going to be comfortable walking around all day.... haha)

Pirates of the Carribean show:

I'm sick

2006-01-01T17:32:00.000-05:00

woke up this morning feeling ugh...
what a way to start the new year.
:(

Happy New Years!!!

2006-01-01T00:08:00.000-05:00

Welcome into 2006!!!
I hope this year is great for everyone!
:D

We spent the night watching The Brothers Grim (boo) and then Tony played a new game, and I read ebay forums... what a pair of party-ers we are lol :) At the last thirty seconds we watched the ball drop on tv.... woo hoo! 2006!!! Anyway, we are just happy to be home together to welcome in this new year. Last year he was deployed.... so this means alot. :)

my carlee aceo

2005-12-31T15:10:00.000-05:00

I painted Carlee today. :) A painting of her crying when she was 2 weeks old. I think the photo is on her blog, probably in late May or early June entry. Anywho... it was fun! I know it's really amateur but that's okay. I love it and Tony thinks it's cool. :)
I wish I had a scanner, you can't even really tell the colors I used. And the ink smeared a little when I painted over it, but it's okay. I brushed away from her mouth because I was trying to make it look like that's where all the noise was coming from lol... Kind of abstract and not at the same time, no? :) I had fun.

my first aceo painting

2005-12-31T14:55:00.000-05:00

I painted my first aceo yesterday. Nobody will probably think it's art, but it's okay because it has special meaning for me. It's very symbolic. The story behind it is this:

I was 5 or 6 and in Pre-K (and yes I really do remember this)... The teachers decided to test our creativity levels and brought out brown paint and paper. They said, "We're going to play some classical music and we want you to paint whatever comes to mind, paint whatever the music makes you think of." So while all the little kids were painting flowers, or ballerinas, and whatnot... I decided I wasn't going to. I was going to paint something completely different... so what did I do? I finger painted my entire sheet brown, the whole thing.... and I got in trouble for it. "That wasn't the assignment Sheena," they scolded me. "You ruined your project."

Before I got in trouble, I thought it was so cool. Mine was the only different one, mine stood out... But then they made me feel terrible about not doing what everyone else was doing... and I honestly believe that was the day my "nonconformist" characteristics were buried along with my confidence in my way of thinking and creativity...

So, yesterday I cut out an aceo sized card and allowed myself to recreate that 5 year old's painting with no criticism, no scolding.... just a brown painting. It's my step towards not limiting myself by overcriticizing my creativity... so here it is. My brown painting.

First ACEO in my collection

2005-12-31T11:44:00.000-05:00

I got my first ACEO in the mail today! It's so awesome. Look at it here. I love the concept of this one, that's why I bought it. And this artist's work is so cool. I loved another one she did of a purple cat. I watched it on ebay and forgot to bid. :( I'm sure I'll be buying more from her. I need to list some more stuff I need to get rid of so I can have more money to buy more aceos. :D

ebay blog transfer...

2005-12-31T11:12:00.000-05:00

okay, well i had originally started a new blog for my ebay stuff... but I think I'm just going to bring it all over here... So, I'll probably be talking about ebay alot now because I love it and it's my new hobby since I don't get to go geocaching much anymore. :)

art collecting

2005-12-30T20:39:00.000-05:00

I'm starting a new collection... lol... like I need something else to collect! but this is going to be really cool. They are called ACEOs, and I found out about them on ebay. Artists create trading card size masterpieces and sell them. They are small, 2.5 by 3.5 inches, so they're easy to store or display, and they're alot less expensive than buying huge original paintings! They are so cool!

I've already bought a few, but they haven't come in the mail yet. Seeing all the wonderful designs has really inspired me to start creating my own art. I am by no means an artist, but I love art, and I think it would be really challenging and rewarding to explore my own creativity. So, I'll probably be blogging about that soon. Anywho, if you want to see some original art just search ACEO on ebay. Really cool stuff!
*edit I made a link for you here.

I'm having fun playing Katamari with Tony. :) I love this game... lol

:(

2005-12-28T11:23:00.000-05:00

well, I ended up canceling on my friend... :( **sorry K** I really wanted to go... Tony finally called back after I had been trying to reach him all day. I picked him up from work around 4, and he was exhausted. I asked him if he would still go with me, and told him I would even drive. I just didn't want to drive by myself... well, he said no, he was too tired. ugh... So I thought about it, and talked myself out of it I guess. I know I know... I'm such a freakin scaredy cat... I didn't want to drive to a new place downtown by myself with the baby, I didn't know how the traffic would be, how the baby was going to be, or if she was going to stress me out while driving... I know sounds stupid. oh well.... it was good I didn't go anyway, Carlee was horribly fussy last night starting at around 6. :( I don't know WHAT was wrong with her, but both me and tony were quite tired of it. But we managed... She was fussy and fought everything up until we finally put her in the crib and let her cry herself to sleep.

day after day after christmas

2005-12-27T11:45:00.000-05:00

So, my grandparents left this morning. early early... I was glad they drove down. Grandma helped me alot with dinner. It would of been so much more stressfull if I was doing it by myself. It definately wouldn't of turned out good that's for sure. lol...

Part of me wishes we all still lived in Texas so that we could spend every single holiday together, and see eachother more than once a year. :( especially now that Carlee's here. But I know it can't be that way for a little while anyway. Tony didn't have to work on Christmas like we thought at first. yay! It was a really nice holiday. But he did have duty yesterday (monday) and since that was the legal holiday, he was supposed to be off today, but that didn't happen... it's already noon... grr I don't know when he's going to get home.

If he doesn't get off in time, Carlee and I will be going to a museum without him... My friend K invited us. And it's something I've been wanting to do, so I can't wait to see it. I just hope Tony gets off on time... I hate driving across Jax by myself, but I'll do it if I have to. :D

The weather outside is....

2005-12-25T12:18:00.000-05:00

D E L I G H T F U L ! ! ! !

Our Florida Christmas rocks! Who needs snow? not me that's for sure! haha!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Carlee gave us our Christmas present early... yesterday to be exact..... yesterday afternoon.... (drum roll....) she CRAWLED for the first time!!! YAY!!! and then last night she was really really fussy, so I was putting stuff on her gums just in case... and GUESS WHAT!!! her first tooth was out!!!! just a little but still!!!! We were SO excited!!! yay!

one more time.... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Tag!

2005-12-23T10:53:00.000-05:00

I got tagged for the first time ever by Loraloo! yay! (I think) haha....

List 5 weird things about yourself:
(and I had to think hard, because I kept telling myself, "no that's normal!"....

1. I can move my pinky toe without moving the other toes.

2. I've never been drunk even though I'm legal now, this is weird simply because I come from a small town where most kids get drunk for the first time at 15 or 16.... (but that doesn't mean I don't drink, because I do.... just not enough to get drunk... I don't know why... tony keeps wanting to see me drunk, lol...)

3. I've always loved kid movies and shows... I love watching them... Nemo, Robots, Dora, Backyardigans (SOO cute!!) and my daughter isn't even old enough to request them... haha.. Tony gets annoyed when I quote the movies... haha. "in a aninanimanimone" "just keep swimming... just keep swimming..." can you tell Nemo is my favorite? lol... my cats are even named Nemo and Dori. (I think that might count as #4.)

4. This one might be a little redundant, but I keep everything... I don't think it's wierd, but tony does. I'm only listing this because a few seconds ago, I had to quit typing to take something away from carlee, and a cat whisker was on the floor... I picked it up and put it on top of the tv... why? I dunno, it's my cat's whisker. lol... plus I'll show tony when he gets home.

5. I saw a UFO once, I think. I was back in highschool and I saw a shooting star but then it stopped suddenly and zoomed the other way, and then disappeared! I don't know of any plane that can do that!

I just thought of some more too.... I have a heart freckle on my shoulder which is funny because of the saying "wearing your heart on your sleeve"... and I do. Oh and one of my pupils is bigger than the other.... okay...

I tag Mom, Britt (if she ever blogs again), Stress, and Loopy.
:D

Christmas pics

2005-12-22T14:54:00.000-05:00

I posted Carlee's xmas pics... but I don't have a scanner, so I had to take pictures of the pictures... anywho... they're here. she did so good, i'm proud of her.

i've been trying to start cleaning... since my grandparents are coming down tomorrow. carlee won't let me get too much done, and tony's got duty again today. grrr... i can't wait until he gets his days off.

ok bye. :)

it's sunday

2005-12-18T14:13:00.000-05:00

and it's only carlee and me again.... :( tony has duty today... third weekend in a row that he has had duty... grrr.... carlee is starting to get into everything! lol... and is almost crawling!!! OMG! anywho.... just a quick entry.... time to feed her a snack. :D

wow how time can fly....

2005-12-18T14:08:00.000-05:00

These are from carlee's blog.... just thought i'd share a comparison.... wow... she takes my breath away everytime I realize how much she's grown and is showing more and more of her personality everyday... :)

i forgot!

2005-12-14T12:31:00.000-05:00

I forgot to say that yesterday I had so much fun! I went with my friend K to a Scholastic Warehouse sale!!!! and came home with a bunch of books for Carlee!!! I was so excited since she only had about a handful of books. It was a lot of fun hanging out and shopping... shopping is always fun! :D Anyways, we got some great deals! Everything was 50% off cover price, and then we all had a coupon for 10 dollars off a 50 dollar purchase! how cool is that? yay!

Humpday

2005-12-14T12:23:00.000-05:00

Today feels like it's been a week long... and it's only 12:30... whew...

This morning I had to take Tony to work so that I could keep the car... (we still aren't able to drive the truck)... ugh... anywho.... the reason I needed the car was so that I could take poor Carlee to the doctors. Yesterday morning she woke up with a little bit of crust on her eyes. I didn't think anything of it, then later on they got a little pink, so I went ahead and made an appointment. This morning, they were completely covered! :( So, we went in at 8 am and the doctor said that she thought it was just a viral infection, not pink eye. But, she went ahead and gave me the drops, just in case it gets worse by tomorrow... but if it doesn't then I am not supposed to use the medicine... so... we leave there, and head home so that I can feed her and get her dressed for her Christmas pictures... Picked up a package at the Post Office.... then, drove to walmarts to buy some tights and shoes... they were all out of dressy shoes in size 3 (which is what I was pretty sure she needed.) So, I had to buy size 2 and smush her little feet in there... They fit, they're just a little tight because her feet are so fat. :) So, got her pics taken. I can't wait til we go pick them up, She did so good!!! yay! ***SiGh....*** and now we're finally home! whoa! that was a busy morning... and now I'm starving... lol....

happy humpday!

OoOoO Christmas tree.....

2005-12-12T14:46:00.000-05:00

stress shared his tree, so i thought i'd do the same.

i can't sleep.... and irrational fears

2005-12-07T00:32:00.000-05:00

it's after midnight... i can't sleep... it's not that i'm not tired... because i am... i'm freakin exhausted... but as soon as i get into bed... my mind starts racing... and just keeps going. i don't know why i can't "shut it off" like tony tells me to... grrrr.... anywho... so i'm blogging... and using a lot of dots....

the other day loraloo posted about irrational fears, hers being the dentist. i posted a comment admitting that mine too is the dentist.. but today i was thinking about it, and i have more than just one irrational fear... i realized today that one of them is....

sinks..... yeah.... kitchen sinks.... bathroom sinks.... i hate them... they're disgusting. i have to wash my sink before i wash any dishes in it. is that wierd? lol... i mean, i just look at it, and imagine all the food gunk that is stuck along the sides of the drain... or that gets caught in the crevice around the drain hole.... microscopically rotting away....... ewwwww..... and bathroom sinks.... yuck! even when they're clean, they're gross. when i was little i used to pour a capful of peroxide in the sink to watch it bubble up as it killed millions of little germs. i'm serious. you should try it. it's quite disturbing....

another fear is someone finding a receipt with our whole debit card number on it and cleaning out our account..... i keep all of our receipts.... and finally check all of them when i have a the time.... (which is hardly ever, so they build up) hmm... i don't know why i just don't check them as soon as i get them... but i also keep them for a while just in case... (i've already admitted to being a clutterer on this blog....) so there's yet another example. anyway.... you should really check all of your receipts to make sure the whole card number isn't on it.... i've had to shred some wendy's receipts, hospital receipts, a few other fast food places, but i can't remember which ones..... ugh.... yeah, i'm weird.

so i guess those are my other two irrational fears. i was a little overwhelmed today. carlee's started throwing tantrums and i don't know why.... and i know they're tantrums, because as soon as i pick her up, she's fine. oh well.... i really need to get to sleep.... good night guys....

i heart ebay

2005-12-06T11:29:00.000-05:00

last night.... i won a brand new jogging stroller that retails for 130.00 for 70!!! and i don't have to pay shipping because i can do a local pickup here at jax!!! woo hooo!!!! (tony will be going with me..... don't worry you know who.) :D lol.... yay... i'm so excited! lol... i started a new blog for my ebay stuff... but i haven't done much with it yet... when i do, i'll post a link for those of you who are interested. later!

ps. i updated carlee's blog finally! yay

whew

2005-11-30T13:34:00.000-05:00

last night was rough... poor thing couldn't sleep with a stuffy nose... kept waking up every ten minutes it feels like to gasp for air. :( tony actually stayed up late to help... we tried the saline drops, tried to con her into blowing her nose... worked a few times, but it still kept getting stuffed again. so everytime she woke up, i would pat her on her back until she fell asleep again. this morning I was sooo tired. Tony took the car so I wouldn't have to drive him to work. (he was supposed to leave out again today, but that won't happen for a few weeks... yay!) anywho... after i got up with carlee, i noticed she was really really hot to the touch. i took her temperature and it read 100.9 degrees. that was really high to me. :( but i knew if i called the clinic they would say, "well, she just got her shots yesterday, that's why." so i gave her some more tylenol, fed her, and put her back to bed... we got up for good around 12:45 (so late!) and i felt for her temperature, and she was FINALLY cool to the touch. Man i was getting worried! geez... anywho... she's in a better mood now... but still not eating as much as she usually does, which is highly unusual! so, i know she's obviously not completely over it. but i'm glad the fever is gone... now to start on housework....
:)

time to relax? don't think so...

2005-11-28T14:04:00.000-05:00

we got back home from Texas on saturday... long drive... very... ugh. tony was so great to bring everything upstairs. :) we got to work on putting things up... (the part i hate most!) saturday night was a nightmare, Carlee kept waking up... ate quite a few times, etc. I remember Sundays as THE day to relax when i was little... mine aren't anymore. started laundry as soon as I got up, fed carlee, showered, took care of carlee, worked on the computer, listed some stuff on ebay, meanwhile taking care of carlee... geez are they a lot of WORK!!! lol....

last night was even worse... carlee kept waking up... but suddenly, her nose was stuffed up... she was hungry, but had touble eating... kept crying... :( turns out she got my cold that I was just getting over. so she's sick today. her first time ever... i felt horrible for her. her nose is constantly running, she's been sneezing all day... i gave her some infant tylenol for colds, it seemed to help, but I only gave her half the dose since she's only 20 lbs not 24+.... and I think it already wore off. :( ugh... but I don't want to give her too much either... I don't know... I have a lot I want to write about, but carlee is crying now so it'll have to wait.

Happy Belated Thanksgiving everyone,

And Happy Birthday to the #1 Mom in the world!

And Happy Belated birthday to my Grandma also!!!

the color purple... car misery... and xBox

2005-11-21T18:59:00.000-05:00

....purple... yes. that is what color my hair was the day before yesterday... well sorta anyway. ever since junior high i had wanted to dye my hair... in the 8th grade i streaked it blondE, but that was about as brave as i got... then, in highschool my sister got brave enough to do her hair in awesome styles and colors.... but caught hell or it from certain family members... so then i was like, yeah right! forget dying my hair, i don't even want to put up with that! but a few days ago, with encouragement from the hubby, i got brave enough to do it. i picked up a bleach kit and a bottle of a cool shade of purple dye. cool. we get home and hubby helps me bleach it... fun fun, considering boys don't even know the correct way to brush hair let alone bleach it LOL... but we got it all on there, waited the amount of time for dark brown hair and washed it out... hmm... my head was suddenly three ir four different colors.... spots that were still dark brown, some orange, some very very blondE, and some shade in between those... so... we thought about it, and said, well, all different shades of purple will be cool... so we continued with the process and put the dye all over my hair.. waited... washed it out... all of it... none of the dye took to my hair! is my hair purple? i asked... no, tony said, but the tub is. i was sooo frustrated! by this time, my sister had showed up as a surprise, just in time to save the day. so we made another run to sally's and picked up another bleach kit, and another couple of purple dyes, this time a different brand. bleach again... wash... STILL have stubborn dark brown hair... UGH! dyed it all purple anyway... waited... washed... ok... different shades of purple.. hm.. that's fine. looked pretty cool, guess... lol... i went to wash it the next morning, and guess what? more dye ran into the drain... leaving my hair purple in some spots, a weird orange in others, and brown in other spots... What the hell?!? lol... sooooo.... i gave up. me and the hubby ran to walmarts and got two boxes of black dye, which my hair has been black before, so i knew i would like it... and that solved that problem really quick. lol... i was dissapointed though. i was finally brave enought to dye it, and it didn't even want to stay in my hair... :(

Anywho... the car... UGH! we had a flat tire the other night. uhhh thursday night i believe. there was a huge two pronged metal thing in the side of the tire. so we call Hanks tire and muffler after temporarily airing it up. what time do you close? 5... (it was 4:45) will someone please wait? we've got a flat tire, and need to get it fixed. yeah.. hurry up. so, we drove over there, they fixed it but said this: well, we aren't going to guarantee it, because it's on the side wall, and it is in a really bad spot. it could actually come unpatched when you're taking a turn...

greeaaattt... so now today, we went and tried to find a tire to buy and have it put on... well, turns out, nobody makes the size tire that our vue came with! geez!!! we were so mad... well, turns out, Hanks is bringing some in tomorrow and is going to put it on, but still... i couldn't believe it was going to be this hard to find a tire that came on our car when we bought it! that just doesn't make sense to me. we're seriously considering trading it in because here in the US it seems that only Saturn dealerships know what they're doing with saturns, and in Italy it's going to be 1000 times harder to find someone to work on it, much less buying parts for it. GRRR... anyway....

tony's at walmart right now waiting in line. he's been there since 3pm... and the xbox doesn't start selling until midnight! lol... but he's lucky he got in line because this walmart only got 50 in, and he's about number 12, and the line got long pretty fast. lol... as soon as my mom gets home to watch the baby i'm gonna go keep him company. :)

Visiting Home

2005-11-17T00:15:00.000-05:00

So we made it into Texas late Saturday night or really early Sunday morning. It was a long drive. We stopped in Pensacola to visit with our Grandparents on Tony's side, and stayed the night there to break up the drive a bit, so that was nice. Carlee was better than I thought she was going to be. Only getting fussy toward the end of the first day, and only a little bit on the second day. She's been eating up all the attention from family! lol... Days are going by really fast. Anyway, just a quick entry to let all our Florida friends that we did make it okay. :) more later.

rambling...

2005-11-09T17:26:00.000-05:00

Clifford the Big Red Dog is on tv. Carlee's watching it from her jumperoo. I wonder if it's bad to let her watch tv already. oh well, it gives me a much needed break. She likes cartoons, and if I'm holding her, she'll watch my soaps with me. lol...

I'm listening to Death Cab for Cutie. I like em. My baby is growing too fast. Last night, my friend Loopy and I ate at Arby's and for the first time, Carlee sat in the highchair. :( I had my purse behind her to prop her up if she needed it, but she didn't even use it.

**well, she's in my lap now... guess she got tired of the jumperoo**

The other day, I was going through her small clothes to decide whether or not to get rid of them... (we aren't planning on having another anytime soon, and I'm a clutterer and I'm trying hard to get over it...) anyway... i pulled out one of her newborn onsies and her newborn scent overwhelmed me. I was suddenly filled with so many emotions, I started crying... Tony laughed at me, but then took it, smelled it, and got quiet. We just sat there and watched her for a little bit...

i don't think i'm going to get rid of them yet.

I'm soooooo excited!!!

2005-11-07T13:49:00.000-05:00

Our november leave got approved.... and we're gonna get to go home!!!! Yay!!! I can't wait! I haven't been home in over a year, and my family hasn't seen the baby since she was born! and Tony's family has never met her!!! omg!!! ugh! I can't wait to see everyone's faces when they see her. and I can't wait for Thanksgiving! yummmmmy :D woohoooooo!!!!

Blue Angels

2005-11-07T13:12:00.000-05:00

We went and saw the Blue Angels out at the beach this past Saturday (the 5th?)... It was so awesome! I couldn't believe how crazy their stunts are. Sometimes it looked like they were too close, almost hitting eachother it looked like! wow! I'm so glad we went... fighting traffic all the way back to the house was another story.... lol... Here are some pics:

Exhausted Hubby

2005-11-01T12:23:00.000-05:00

This was yesterday when tony came home from work. poor thing. :) he originally got on carlee's mat to play with her (i think) lol.... then reached to untie his shoe... and paaaassssed out! i was laughing so hard, I went and grabbed the camera took a few pics. then i went and grabbed carlee and said, "Daddy give me back my toy!" finally tony woke up after hearing me and said, "What? oh sorry." he didn't even realize he had passed out until i told him and showed him the pics. LOL... my poor hardworking hubby. :)

bday pics

2005-11-01T12:10:00.000-05:00

My First Legal Drink :)

...a little overwhelmed at this HuGe Margarita...

my wonderful hubby and his usual rum and coke

after dinner :)

what's my age again?

2005-11-01T09:50:00.000-05:00

welp... yesterday was my birthday. woo hoo i'm now legal in all aspects. yep turned 21. and yet somedays i feel 35 already lol....

so the day i spent with carlee of course waiting for tony to get home from work... when he did, he was so tired because he had duty on sunday. so he passed out on the floor (i'll post a pic later lol) anywho... so he slept until 4 and then i woke him up to get ready to go out.

we dropped carlee of at stress' house who volunteered to watch her (thankyou!!!) and then we headed out to go eat. we had wanted bennigans at first, but it was closed, so we ended up at TGIFridays. still good. i had steak. yumm :) and ordered my first legal drink. an O margarita. citrusy flavor, but all you could taste was the tequilla, it was strong, lol... and it wasn't just me that thought so, tony said it was too. even though i drink at home sometimes with tony, i still hardly have a tolerance for alcohol so by the time i had drank only a half inch worth of the margarita i was already feeling the tequilla. haha... but the waitress didn't even card me :) and it made my day that i looked 21. lol.... most people guess i look like 17 :( so anywho... after eating, the employees came out and sang happy birthday, but it wasn't embarrasing because the restaraunt was almost empty anyways...

so we finished the dessert, our drinks, and left. i didn't get drunk, only buzzed. what a 21 year old i am haha... we didn't want to leave carlee at stress' house too late so we just went to a couple of stores and looked around enjoying no baby time. then we went and picked carlee up, found out that she was fussy the whole time (i don't know what i'm going to do with her!) lol... then we went home and i started the feeding carlee, getting her to bed routine. i told tony to go to bed because it was getting late and he had to get up early for work.

carlee fought sleep for an hour almost... so i didn't get to bed until midnight. and then she woke up around 3:30 or 4 hungry... little booger. :) anywho... i had fun. anytime i can spend with tony i have a good time. i'll add pics later, i don't know where the camera is. :)

3 down....

2005-10-28T19:26:00.000-04:00

i got three of my fillings today... ugh. it sucked. but it wasn't as bad as i imagined it was going to be. but still it sucked.... and i got lots more to get done. she won't even tell me how many... i think she's worried she'll scare me away... :S anywho.... i'm tired.. and carlee's being a brat tonight, i don't know why... fussy fussy.... that's all. g'nite

what should go on my ipod?

2005-10-26T19:05:00.000-04:00

YAY!!! tony bought me an ipod for my birthday! woo hoo!!! i'm excited lol... he's like, "when are you ever going to use it? that's what we have the laptops for." but i like it, and i'm gonna use whenever i go out... and plus he wants to use it at work. lol... anywho... what songs/bands does everyone recommend? granted, we have a lot of mp3 files, (like 2,300+) but i don't have mtv or vh1 and haven't for over a year, so i'm lost on all the new bands, songs, etc. so tell me so i can check em out! yay!!!

He's such a butthead sometimes :)

2005-10-25T13:37:00.000-04:00

**keep in mind, tony left yesterday morning to go underway**

last night i got home late, after class i hung out at stress' house visiting for a while... when i got home, i laid the baby on the floor and made a beeline to the bathroom... as soon as i got in there, a tall man walked really fast by the door. my first thought was: "What the HELL? who's in my house, my BABY is out in the LIVING ROOM!" my heart was immediately in my throat. i thought all of that in a split second, then in the second second, i realized i recognized him... grrr it my was HUSBAND. i was so mad! he scared me so bad... into tears. ugh. lol... i can laugh about it now, but boy was i pissed off last night for a couple of minutes. he said he waited for me to put the baby down so i wouldn't drop her... so i know he planned it. butthead. :)

anyway, so it turns out that they did go out, and then alot of things went wrong with the ship! good grief! gas leaks, engines went out... they got one engine up, and then another gas leak... so the captain was like, "yeah... we're gonna pull back in." so... that's why tony was home and i didn't even know it. so we're waiting to find out if they're going to go out at all this week or what. i hope that they don't. :)

oh and another annoyance i'd like to blog about. we ordered a battery/charger for tony's laptop because one came not working when we ordered the laptops. well, we ordered it back on like the 6th and we still hadn't got it. so i looked online, and the stupid site said it was "successfully delivered." wtf mate? we never got it. so we tried calling, but they were closed. so, then monday i was supposed to call again, but it suddenly came to my attention that sometimes the front office will sign for things, so i went and checked there. sure enough.... it was there. for over two weeks! did the front office ever let us know? no. did they leave a note on the door? no. did they give us a call? no. i would of rathered the delivery truck have to come back and catch us, than to have it sitting in the office without them telling us it was there! geez! stupid front office. that's all.

i've been able to write all this because carlee's sleeping. i had a load of laundry in the dryer, but it just buzzed so i gotta go fold it. all my cake decoration stuff is soaking in the sink, i have to finish washing them. and do another load of laundry. had enough of my mundaneness yet? lol... is that a word? haha... more later... maybe :)

Last Class

2005-10-25T13:17:00.000-04:00

last night was my last class of course one. yay! i'm somewhat relieved. lol... this past month was stressfull trying to get to class, make cakes/cupcakes every week, get carlee to the babysitter's... etc... all while tony was underway every single time i had class just about... and plus i've realized i have a tendency to OvErStReSs about little things.... hmmm... sound familiar mom? lol... yeah... got that from my mom. :) anywho...

so, we had to make seven roses, and for some reason they were harder to make this week than last. my icing was being a pain. but i got them done. then we learned and practiced stems for a boquet of roses, and we learned three different leaves. then we learned a sweet pea flower. it's pretty if you get it right, alot of mine kept ending up looking like three straight lines next to eachother. lol...

so we put six of the roses in a cluster, added stems and leaves, then used a shell and sweet pea border for the bottom of the cake, and a smaller shell border for the top of the cake. we also learned a bow, but we had the choice of using it on our cake or not, and i didn't think i could do it good enough to make it look nice. anyway, there's the pic, but you can't see the bottom border, but i really liked it.

my cupcakes

2005-10-24T14:33:00.000-04:00

The clown was my favorite. Today is the last class of course 1. I'm debating taking the second course. I really want to, but this has been stressfull with tony being underway all the time and trying to get things taken care of for carlee etc all on my own. grrr... plus we're supposed to be getting leave in november so i'd miss like 2 out of 4 classes anyway... i dunno... i'll have to talk to the teacher tonight.

...maybe i've been watching too much starting over...

2005-10-21T16:16:00.000-04:00

how do you know when you've reached authenticity? i find myself wondering... who am i now? what do i enjoy? what do i like? what do i wish i could be? blogger buddies: when did you become authentic?

i'm watching carlee playing on the floor, exploring, squealing at her little toys dangling over her head, and i want her to know that whoever she is, she is perfect. i want her to grow up knowing that she can be who she is meant to be.

and also... when she's old to enough to understand and to comprehend getting to know her mommy, i want to be exactly that. her mommy. not what some people think i should be, not what i feel pressured to be, but exactly who i am... but it's hard, because over the years things happen that eat away at that pure you. i feel like i've lost little pieces of me over the years... and i don't know how to get them back. i've spent so many years trying to be something different for so many people.

i think that i'm thinking about this now because for the past two years almost, i felt like i haven't had that pressure to be something in particular. i'm so lucky to have such an accepting husband. he loves me for who i am, and continues to do so even as i grow. i feel like i can finally start to explore who i am and really get to know me better, and share that person with everyone else.

i've started projects like this before... started journals... started and erased alter-ego blogs... lol... but you know what? i don't feel like i should keep it secret, like i'm ashamed of things or something. how is that authentic? no. i'm going to start a new journey, one to get to know myself and grow. i'm hoping that this blog will help me do so.

publishing this post is a personal achievement all in its own. just knowing that people will know how Sheena really feels... wow. i actually feel empowered...

i wish....

2005-10-21T12:02:00.000-04:00

well, thanks for your well wishes.... but yeah.... i'm gonna have to get a lot of work done. :(

i haven't been to the dentist in a loooong time.... so yeah. when she was checking my teeth and telling the nurse what to write on the chart, it felt like she had something to say about every single tooth almost! anyway... i need.... i don't even know how many fillings.... she didn't tell me exactly how many, but it's alot. and one, she thinks needs a root canal, and a crown but she saw how upset i was, so she said she'd try a filling first to see if it would be enough... if not, i'll have to have root canal... and if any of the other fillings don't take... yeah... more root canals.... oh, and i have to get all four of my wisdom teeth pulled.... AND i have to see a gum specialist... so yeah.... ugh. not fun :(

i was stressed out. i'm scared of getting so much work done. overwhelmed. tony told me not to worry about it, and he's just glad that we can take care of it. i guess that's one more thing that's good about the navy.... insurance. anywho.... more later.

Dentist

2005-10-19T10:59:00.000-04:00

so my dentist appointment is tomorrow....
yikes!
ugh...
wish me luck....

First... Last... Current

2005-10-18T17:03:00.000-04:00

i got this from loraloo who got it from jas :) and now i'm doing it:

First Best Friend:
My first real best friend is Rise. I thought I had a best friend before her, but she ended up stabbing me in the back, so yeah, Rise. We met in junior high and we're still best friends. She helped me move over here to florida, driving 19 hours straight with me. she's the best, and i know we're going to keep being best friends forever. :)

First Car:
was a 1992 t-bird. red. i got it my sophomore year. it was nice, i liked it. the only thing i didn't like was that it was rear wheel drive, and it spun out on me a few times. scary... hmm... the driver side mirror was broken by a guy i worked with (on purpose) and he never fixed it. the windows were electric and quit working, so i could pull them down by hand if i locked myself out of my car... lol... which i did a few times.

First Kiss:
my very first kiss was when i was in the sixth grade. i was "going out" with my first "boyfriend" and we went to skate world the one time i convinced my mom to let me go, my sister had to go too. lol... anyway, it was only a quick peck. nothing too special.

First Makeout:
hmm... that would be my freshman year. like loraloo i was dating an older guy. i was 15, he was 17. it was the first time i got to spend a whole day with him, it's okay though, i married him. :)

First Big Trip:
hmm... i guess the very first trip i remember (and i only remember certain things) was when i went to ohio with my grandparents to visit my greatgrandparents. (i don't even remember how old i was) i remember coloring with my grandma, sharing ginger ale with my great grandpa, and talking with my greatgrandma and eating life savers with her.

First Flight:
i was 12 i think, and i got to fly to new york with a group of girls for a modeling/acting competition... looking back, i'm convinced it was a scam. we went to a boat party and on the way back to the hotel, the group i was with piled into a cab and left me, so i got lost... luckily i ran into another girl and her parents so they let me hang out with them... someone upstairs was looking out for me. we shoulda sued the agency haha.

First time skiing/snowboarding:
my sophomore year, we went to colorado for a band competition. i tried to learn how to snowboard, but i kept falling, and it was freezing, and frustrating, so i gave up. lol don't think i would ever try again either. ha.

First alcoholic drink:
i don't remember... hmm... my mom let us sip her wine coolers when we were 13ish(?) i think... don't remember...

First Ticket Violation:
**knock on wood** i have a perfect driving record! **knock on wood**

First job:
ugh. bagger at HEB grocery store. started a month after i turned 16. bagged groceries, pushed carts in the Texas heat... then after a year i got promoted to cashier. i stayed there for 3 years... 2.9 years too many. LoL

First date:
same day as first makeout (above)... we spent the day together, went to mission taco, played pool, hung out at his grandpa's house, we watched edward scissorhands, that was the first movie we ever watched together, and ate mcdonald's. :)

Last car ride:
ugh, went to the post office today after tony got home, so that i didn't have to take the baby. fought traffic all the way there and all the way back. living so close to base sucks when it comes to traffic. got tailgated, cut off, and waited through 6 lights before i finally was able to take the turn down our street.

Last kiss:
lol... just a few minutes ago, i kept kissing tony to wake him up from his nap... he got mad LoL

Last time you cried:
uh... to tell the truth, it was a few weeks ago, when i thought about having to tell my mom about moving to italy.

Last movie watched:
Kill Bill Volume 2 on sunday. i had wanted to watch it earlier that day, and in the afternoon, tony put it in, which surprised me because he doesn't like it.

Last food you ate:
two slices of leftover pizza (ham and pineapple) with ranch dressing spread over the top of it, and a cupcake... so not healthy :

Last Love:
hmm... before my one and only? i guess it would be my daisy dog. is that pathetic?

Last Temptation:
those stupid cupcakes i made for class, sitting in the oven so the cats don't get to them. i gave in today.... twice.

Last Item bought:
i bought some stuff on ebay from this lady that sells victoria secret stuff for really cheap, and it's genuine... i don't know how people get the extra stuff that doesn't sell from companies.... you can make a lot of profit that way. sheesh.

Last Annoyance:
the traffic coming home from post office.

Last time wanting to die:
uhhh never. ???

Last concert:
well tony's been to some recently, but not me. :( my last was OzzFest 2003. geez... i'm such a party-er... not **it would of been soad but they didn't give tony the day off **

Last phone call:
hmm completed would be to my grandma.... we talked today... later, i called tony to see when he'd be home, but he didn't answer. call screening babe? lol...

Last friend added to your blog:
it's about to be stress. welcome to the addiction. yay :)

Current best friend:
my very very very best friend? that would be tony. how could it not be? he's the last person i see before i go to sleep, the first i see when i wake up, the one i still share secrets with, the one who is going through this foreign yet exciting journey of parenthood with me... he makes me laugh, feel loved, accepted, and supports me... yeah, he's it.

Current Car:
2004 Saturn Vue. i love it. we missed it so much when it was having work done, and they gave us a tiny little cavalier to drive... ugh, i banged my head on the edge of the door twice. grrr stupid little car.

Current Love:
my hubby and our little one. they are the light of my every day. :D i'm so thankful for them

Current activity:
uhhh... i'm blogging. duh... haha besides that... selling extra shtuff on ebay

Current annoyance:
i have a rumbly in my tumbly.... i'm hungry, and tony's napping.....

Current mood:
entertained....
by carlee who is sitting beside me watching pbs and making funny faces and weird noises....

i'm beat

2005-10-17T23:12:00.000-04:00

so, i just got carlee to sleep a few minutes ago... and i have a few minutes to write before i pass outtttttt.........................
........................................oh, sorry.
i'm awake. i promise.

today i've been constantly on the go. first a trip to the post office to mail stuff i sold on ebay (yay..), then off to the nex to buy some more boxes, but they didn't have the size i needed, so then a fifteen minute drive to the closest walmart.... then all the way back to base to pick up a prescription.... back home since carlee was getting hungry, feed her, entertain her, get her down for a nap, bake my cupcakes for class, make a batch of frosting (meanwhile carlee woke up, and was screaming), so back to entertaining her while the cupcakes cool, feed her again, put her in the jumperoo, ice my cupcakes, make another batch of icing to use during class, start cleaning up, but carlee loses it, lol.... go back to taking care of her... my babysitter showed up (since tony had duty today AGAIN!) this time my friend loopy watched her (not that stress wasn't a good babysitter :) she was online when i asked) anywho.... so i rushed to get all my class stuff together, carlees stuff straight, went to class, learned decorations (yay!) came home, chatted with loopy and some dude ;) then after they left, fed carlee her cereal, tried to get her to sleep, but she fights it forever!... and now here i am....

i know my posts are always somewhat mundane.... hardly ever compelling or very interesting except to my family probably lol... never gramatically correct... my tenses go back and forth... i don't care. ha.

ugh... another thing i was supposed to do today was make a dentist appointment. but i'm scared... yeah... ugh. i haven't been in a looooooong time... very long time. and now my last wisdom tooth has pushed its way through and there's no room for it, and it's hurting very bad. there's a dentist office called "gentle dentist" and i wonder if that's just for advertisement... but we'll see.

so, my whole reason for posting was to tell about my class tonight. it was fun. i was going to upload some pics, but the dang batteries are dead on the camera :( so.... i'll do it tomorrow. but anyway, we worked some more on our roses, learned some more flowers, and how to do some caricatures, and made a clown. that was cute, i liked the clown. i'll post some pics tomorrow.

right now i'm going to bed. alone. :( i hate duty days. and they're going underway alot this month, every week practically, and starting this week, they all include weekends, so the guys practically will not have a single day off this month. stupid. that's all.

Countdown begins

2005-10-16T15:56:00.000-04:00

already! geez. we realized today that we have seven months before we move. So, today I started going through my closet, organizing, and getting rid of stuff we don't need. I have a box for donations, and a box of stuff I think I can get a little money out of on ebay. So, the closet is done, except for the clothes... I didn't even want to start going through those today. haha... anywho. this weekend has been busy busy since tony finally got home. i was instantly in a better mood as soon as I picked him up on Thursday. **sigh of relief** Anywho... just a quick update to everyone...

Tomorrow

2005-10-12T18:30:00.000-04:00

Tony will come home. geez... this week has been stressfull. It's always hard to do anything when Tony's gone. I usually talk myself out of doing anything just because of how overwhelming it feels sometimes to get ready, get Carlee ready, get all the stuff I need to leave the house... sheesh! Even something that should be simple, such as going to grocery store for two things, is a hundred times harder!

I had to leave Carlee with a babysitter for the first time on Monday so that I could go to my cake decorating class. I really trust this friend though, otherwise I wouldn't even of gone to class. I wrote about how she fared in her blog, but I was more emotional than I thought I was going to be too. I was tearing up walking into the classroom lol... but she did good, and I'm so grateful that I have such a good friend here that would watch her, knowing that it was the first time being watched by anyone other than family. (and even then, she's only been watched by family once!) lol... :)

Yesterday, I actually got to go visit friends of mine that have been on vacation. K invited me over for dinner, and she and her family absolutely love Carlee, so I felt right at home taking her with me. It was nice to have dinner with them and talk with adults. lol...

Anywho... right now, I'm tired. I've been busy all day doing chores. Carlee's beem surprisingly good today. :) I can't wait for tony to get home! :)

My first Cake

2005-10-11T13:06:00.000-04:00

I did everything but the rose. The teacher made the rose at the end of the class to show us how we'll be making it next week.

Boy were my hands tired at the end of class! I was alot of fun though... and SO much easier than I thought! I mean it's going to take practice, but every time I ever saw a cake at the store, I always thought it must be so complicated to decorate like that, but it's not! it's so cool, I'm really enjoying this class. :) more later!

--* ITALY --*

2005-10-09T18:16:00.000-04:00

my love decided to reinlist! we've been debating it for a while now. i'm so proud of him. i told him i would support him no matter what he decided to do. well, he made the decision wednesday. we're going to italy! i'm excited. i've never been out of the country! woo hoo! the only thing that sucks is being far away from family... ugh. that's going to SuCk. but i can't wait to travel over there, and it's going to be so nice because tony will be on shore duty so no going UnDeRwAy for a long while anyway. :) this has to be quick... i gotta go eat dinner real quick before carlee wakes up. tony's UnDeRwAy right now :( that's all... hope ya'lls weekend was good! and have a good holiday tomorrow! :)

We got the TRUCK!!!

2005-10-04T19:32:00.000-04:00

Yay! We picked the truck up today! woohoo!!!

It was GREAT!

2005-10-04T11:51:00.000-04:00

I'm so excited!!! my first class was last night. first of all, it felt great to just get out of the house, no baby to worry about, no chores to worry about.... just me, and learning a new hobby... I got to the classroom early, so I decided to walk around Michaels for a little bit. Found a few books for Carlee (okay... so she was on my mind, lol... it felt wierd.) Got an employee to let me buy a coke from the break room (I needed the caffeine...) then headed back to the class.

By then, there was about 3/4 of the people there. We had a HUGE class. We introduced ourselves and then started the learning. Well, for the first class, we mainly went over what our supplies were and some we needed to buy still, how to make the frosting, different consistencies of the frosting, etc. And also what we were going to learn. She showed us really quick, and I can't tell you how fun and awesome this looks to do! I'm so excited. I'm hoping I don't let myself get frustrated. I really want to learn this.

After class, the teacher took us down the cake isle and we got help getting the rest of the supplies we needed. So this weekend, I have to bake a cake, tort (sp?) it, and ice it. And we're going to learn some flowers next week I think, and even start on the rose!!! Can you tell I'm excited? lol.... I'll take pics of my work even if it's not so good at first, lol, just to show you what we're learning.

Not enough time

2005-09-30T12:04:00.000-04:00

gosh... i wish i had more time to write in this blog... when i do have time to blog, it's spent updating mostly carlee's or our geocaching blog... on monday, i start my cake decorating class. i'm excited. this will be the first thing i've done for myself since carlee was born. carlee recently learned how to squeal, and she usually only did it once it a while... well today, she's been doing it nonstop. lol... i'll update more once i start my class. yay!

I love you Tony!

2005-09-28T10:55:00.000-04:00

some funny pics

2005-09-26T20:57:00.000-04:00

crazy jacksonville: (on the chicken koop one, he's dressed like a pimp lol) we found these places while out driving around over the weekend...

it's official

2005-09-21T20:00:00.000-04:00

i boxed up carlee's newborn to 3 month size clothes last night... i had accidentally grabbed a 0-3 mo. onsie and started putting it on her, and realized what the problem was when it wouldn't even button. LOL... so I got them all out of her dresser. :( makes me kinda sad...

church's

2005-09-18T17:08:00.000-04:00

carlee and i went to a caching event yesterday with our friend stress and his family. it was alot of fun... and to think i almost didn't go... tony ended up with duty on saturday and i didn't want to drive all the way to union county by myself with the baby. plus, friday night had been stressfull! carlee was soooo fussy, and she woke up every few hours! so by the time i woke up to take tony to work, i was really second guessing my decision to go, but in the end, i decided i better take advantage of having something to do, and a chance to hang out with friends and have fun... (geez was that a run-on! lol) anyway, so stress said the baby and i could ride with them, which was cool. the event was fun... caching stuff... i won't go into it here, lol... anyway, on the way back to stress' house, we past a Church's fried chicken. it's the first one i've seen since we moved here a year and a half ago. we had them back in texas... and i LOVE them! so i was really excited... i told tony today after we got home from me picking him up at work, "we have to go to church's today!" (even though it's like 15 minutes away! lol) so we drive over there for lunch... and guess what? they didn't have any chicken tenders thawed out! GEEZ! how do you not unfreeze food on a weekend!?! i don't understand! i was so dissapointed... oh well, maybe next weekend. lol....

that was pretty much what we did today... we've been just relaxing around the house... or is bumming a better word? lol... gotta go get carlee... she just woke up from her oh i'd say 7 minute nap. dernit. hope everyone had a good weekend! :D

4 Years?

2005-09-11T22:32:00.000-04:00

Has it already been that long? geez. So much has happened since that day, life has gone on. I remember hearing about it in class, not long after it happened. Every room turned the tvs on to the news, and we watched, and we were all scared because we lived right next to Ft.Hood. Some of us were afraid maybe the base could be attacked, we were all deeply saddened, and yet it brought us all closer together. I will never forget the images I saw on tv, the heroism of normal people. I was grateful for my family being safe and there with me. My husband (fiance at the time) joined the navy the month after... Many people joined up after to try and make a difference.

I'm just rambling, I know... but I don't want to forget. Those people's lives meant something, and still do. We spent today together as a family, a day at the zoo. And I was grateful that we could. Grateful that we have such a wonderful country, and wonderful people protecting it. Proud to be an American. Lucky to be an American.

Where did our patriotism as a unified country go?

beach bums

2005-09-10T22:05:00.000-04:00

The hurricane is not going to hit us, it seems, thank goodness! (prayers really do work! thanks for all of ya'lls) :) So, today was really nice. We decided to take Carlee to the beach for the first time. You can see more pics at her blog. Hope everyone's weekend is great!

carlee

2005-09-10T11:03:00.000-04:00

Here she is... almost 4 months... this is one of the pics I've posted on her blog, it's one of our favorites. I can't believe how much she's grown already!

late night

2005-09-09T22:49:00.000-04:00

carlee was fussy tonight. i think she slept too much today while we were out caching. she just now fell asleep, and it took alot of work... and she wouldn't eat any formula w/ cereal at all... ugh. which means she'll probably be up in 3-4 hours, hungry... i haven't posted in a few days. we're still doing good... got a hurricane off the coast. they say it's supposed to head off to the north east, but it might loop back around... i think they said they won't know for sure what it's going to do until tuesday. they took the ships out, but tony got to stay behind since he starts a school on monday... we got the loan for the truck today. :) so we should get it once the guys get back. i'll post pics when we do. we're excited! :) that's all for tonight... i'm exhausted...

So.... yeah.

2005-09-02T10:29:00.000-04:00

Yesterday was a busy day. I got up early hoping that Tony would call me to pick him up, but of course why would work let the guys off early even though they've been out the whole week? geez, what was I thinking? lol... anyway, around 2 I had to go pick up Dori from the vet.

"She can't use litter for a week," they said, "because if it gets in her paws, they'll get infected." So, after I brought her home, I had to sweep out the laundry room (well closet really), so that I could put her in there. They gave me shredded paper to put in her cat box, but up till now, she still hasn't used it... ugh.

A while after that, my good friend Loopy came over and we talked and caught up. Tony called and said they weren't going to let him off of work for a while, so Loopy and I decided to go do a few caches. We got five! yay! If you are a cacher, you understand what kind of a fix that is... ha ha! Anyway, Tony finally called and said, "I'm on my way home. Hurry, so you can see the truck."

THE TRUCK. I haven't posted about it, because I didn't want to jinx it, but I think it's okay now. Tony's friend is selling his truck. A Ford F-150. 2003. Nice. Took really good care of it. I mean NICE. and for only what he owes on it, because he doesn't want the payments anymore. WHAT?!? yeah. So, Tony is super excited. As soon as we seal the deal, I'll post some pics. :)

Anyway, so Loopy and I head back to the apartment. The guys are already waiting. Tony shows me the truck. Yes, I tell him, it is nice. He was grinning from ear to ear. lol... We decided to all go out for dinner. That was fun. After not having adult contact for a few days it was awesome to hang out. So we were busy, but a fun busy, not stressful. I love days like that. :D

Dori

2005-08-30T19:08:00.000-04:00

I took the kitten to the vet yesterday morning... turns out she's 16 weeks! Even the vet said, "Originally I would of guessed no older than 8 weeks, but her adult teeth are already coming in which makes her about 16 weeks."

So, I guess she's going to be a tiny kitty. Oh yeah, and Tony changed her name, now it's Dori. She's cute, but hyperactive. She's been bouncing off the walls all day, and look at what she did yesterday:

Tomorrow I have to take her in between 7 and 8 in the morning. She's getting declawed. She's not allowed to run free when I'm gone because of the new couch. :) Here's another pic of her. This was only two days after we brought her in. Her fur looks wet because she still had all the flea spray on her. She's so cute.

tonight

2005-08-25T20:03:00.000-04:00

So the sun is setting now, and the day is over. I had a lot of fun today. Carlee and I went geocaching with our friends NovemberBabies plus 1. I got one new cache for us, and I think seven for Carlee. We actually found a brand new cache today, well, NB+1 found it first :) but we were there. I realized how difficult it is for me to try to look in forest(y) type thicket with Carlee in the baby sling on my front. But it was alot of fun. After we finished caching for the day, we went to the Saturn dealer to get the oil changed. It was a little overdue, and I needed to get it done if I want to go to the event this Sat in Palatka. After about an hour there, we got home, logged our finds, washed up, and then my friend Loopy came over. I haven't seen her in a loooonog time it feels like, so it was nice to catch up with her. Then around seven we took Tony dinner since he has duty today, and missed dinner on the ship. Subways... yum. :) And now I'm trying to relax, but Carlee is being a little fussy. But that's the norm nowadays. :) Like Loopy says, "Beaight"

ComputerShmuter and lil kitty

2005-08-25T17:41:00.000-04:00

Well, the other day, Tony was juuuuust about to transfer all of my files and most importantly all of my pictures (including every single one of carlee) on to discs so that we could put them on my laptop... Well, I saw the screen shut down, the computer wacked out.... Tony said after messing with it for a while, "Don't freak out, but I think we just lost the computer."

"WHAT? my pictures!!!" That's the one thing I am always sooo scared of concerning computers, is losing all my pictures...

"I said don't freak out," Tony said... He kept messing with it... got it up in Safe Mode, thankfully got all my pics and programs out. Thank GOODNESS!!! So, now the regular computer is dead... for a while at least. I think Tony is going to get a new motherboard (or something?) and replace it... I don't know anything about the inside of computers, I'm glad he does. lol...

Oh, and last night, we were just leaving the apartment to go to Walmarts for a few things and we happened to notice a little kitty out in the grass. There is a litter that was born, oh I would guess about a month ago, and we've tried calling to a few of them, but they all run away. This one, however, came right up to Tony. The poor thing was desperate for attention, and food it looked like. So he caught it, took it upstairs, and put it in the bathroom with some food and water. Soooo we had to buy flea stuff, and he spent probably three hours in there trying to get all the fleas off. I felt so bad for it, its skin is all tore up from those stupid fleas. It's still in the bathroom, I don't want to let it out until we kill all of the fleas. That's the last thing I need is for nemo to get them, and then to have them all over the apartment. stupid fleas. But what a cute Kitty! Oh, he named it Puppy. lol... So, now I have to make a vet apt. for it sometime next week. I think she (I say she because I think it's a calico, and I've always heard that calicos are all girls), knows that we saved her, because she's so affectionate. Cute thing. I'll post pics soon, I promise... the camera is full, and I don't know what Tony did with the usb cable... :)

The Scrappin world left me behind

2005-08-24T17:34:00.000-04:00

so... i've been scrapping before scrapbooking was cool.... well, i say that not knowing when it actually became "cool". Ok, let me put it this way... I've been scrapbooking before I knew it was "scrapbooking", since I was about ten.

Anyway, I scrapped up until my senior year of highschool. After that I just didn't have time to do it, working, going to college, life... then I got married, moved to join him in florida, got pregnant, had a wonderful baby... and now I want to start her scrapbook.

After surfing the net and looking at other scrappers' blogs and layout pages, I realized how far behind I am in the scrapping world now. There are some techniques I can't even figure out how they do (I'm sure it's probably really simple, too simple for me to think of) lol... When I went shopping for supplies, I learned from the saleslady that most of the scrapbooking supplies are now leaning toward 12x12 instead of 8x11 (which Tony decided he liked better for Carlee's book)...

So, i decided to just jump back into scrapping... ugh... i've been working on the same page layout for a week now. I've hardly had time to even work on it. I remember scrappin for hours and hours, and now i can barely fit five minutes of work in a day. :( If I ever finish this page i'm working on i'll post a pic of it. i still can't really decide how i want it. Everyone is going so simple these days. Simple lines, hardly any journaling, and if there is some, it's hidden. Alot of people are using 12x12, with one photo... when i started tony's navy scrapbook which is a 12x12, I would use three small pics a page sometimes. that was four years ago that i started that one, and i haven't picked it up in about two... Hopefully, my pages will come out good enough for me.

Thank goodness for the Indoors

2005-08-20T16:07:00.000-04:00

Geez... could it get any hotter here?!? and I used to think Texas was bad! This past week was horrible weather wise! It's gotten up to 110 degrees IN THE SHADE!!! I could not believe it! It makes you not even want to go anywhere, and when you do it feels like all the water in your body evaporates by the time you walk from your car to the building! And the humidity just clings to you... ugh... humidityyouhumidity I had wanted to take my grandparents caching while they were still here, but so much for that. We all decided it was way too hot. Oh well. Hopefully next time. Tonight we are going to Sticky Fingers (the only BBQ place Tony and I like here)...

So Tony enjoyed gambling last night. He came back with 5 dollars more than he left with. lol... but hey, I told him it was better than coming home empty handed. He said while he was playing Black Jack that this girl kept hitting when she shouldn't have, and this old Japanese guy next to her was getting mad and yelling (in Japanese) because she kept taking the cards that he needed. LOL I would of loved to people watch there. Tony and I are going to try to go for my birthday in October... we'll see if I find anyone I trust to watch Carlee.

OHHH!!! The new couch came in this morning!!! Ahhhh!!!! I forgot to tell everyone that it massages too! Tony said to me, "How could you forget the most important thing!?!" lol... I took pics but I'll have to post them later. One of the delivery guys just had a baby boy yesterday he told us... awww... I felt bad that he had to work today. That sucks. I don't know what I would of done if Tony couldn't of taken time off from work when Carlee was born. I feel so lucky for everyday little things like that.

Hope everybody's Saturday is good!

Three Months a Mother

2005-08-19T22:58:00.000-04:00

It's 11pm... I cannot go to sleep. Carlee's actually been asleep since 9:30 which is highly unusual. It's definately not our normal schedule, which I guess is why I'm wide awake. Which also probably means she's going to wake up hungry as soon as I'm falling asleep. Well, with her sleeping, it has been a quiet night. I got to watch some tv, blog surf, chat with a friend on AIM... normal stuff. Tried to get to bed early... not happening. So random thoughts have been running through my mind as I try to relax.

I've been a mother now for three months. Wow. I can't believe that long has already passed. It's weird, sometimes I can't remember what it felt like to not be a mom. And yet at the same time, I still feel like the same person I always was. I hope that makes sense. :) It's as though my perception of time has completely warped itself. I feel the same as a mom of a three month old as I did when she was only three seconds old. And I'm almost positive that I will continue to feel the same emotions, responsabilities, love, until she is three years, or thirty years, or when her own child is three years old even. So, with that realization, time doesn't exist for me in the same way that it used to. No matter how much time goes by, or how fast or slow it decides to go, I am still and will always be a mother. That thought just amazes me. I can't even explain how much.

She's sleeping in her bassinet right now. I can see the outline and shadows of her little plump face. I know that this is my place. This is my purpose in life. I am so fulfilled at this point in my life, and I hope that never goes away.

Tamales, Black Jack, and a beautiful gift

2005-08-19T10:42:00.000-04:00

This week has been good. My grandma's been helping so much with the baby. I've actually been able to just relax sometimes, or get on the computer, cook! lol... The other day, she and I made tamales. I forgot it was hard work, but it is worth it! yummm! Now I've got some in the freezer for me and Tony to eat whenever we want. We've been keeping busy busy.

Tonight Carlee and I will have a quiet (hopefully) mommy and me night, as everyone is going on the SunCruz Casino. Tony is excited about that, he's been wanting to go really bad. Then tomorrow is when the sofa comes in. I'll definately have to take a picture.

Yesterday, I got a box in the mail. It was from my best friend R who lives in Texas. I miss her alot, but our friendship has never lessened over the years. I tore off the wrapping, and saw a box of Mexican beer. "Look, R sent me beer!" I said to my grandma. She just laughed. I finished opening it and pulled out the most beautiful blanket. She handmade it, it's purple and she put pictures on it somehow from Carlee's blog. Her newborn picture, me with her in the hospital, her taking a nap with daddy, one of me still pregnant with her. It is sooo awesome, my eyes teared up, and I fell in love with it. It means so much to me, and I know it will to Carlee too when she's old enough to understand. I can't wait until Tony comes home from being underway so that he can see it. I love it.

New Lappy Top Top

2005-08-16T17:05:00.000-04:00

YAY!!! Our laptop came in today!!! I'm so excited! I'm using it right now. Right at this instant! No seriously, RIGHT NOW!!! YAY!!! It's soooo cool! :D Now I can get online while Tony is playing his games online on the regular computer.

I already love it, lol.and we just found out that our new couch is going to be delivered on Saturday!!! We went couch shopping last week because we are just sooo tired of this futon! It's soo nice.

The first store we went into, Tony had found a couch that he liked for around 800 bucks. It was nice, light blue and white striped, but it was something for like a sitting room, not to lounge on comfortably... I told him, lets go look at a few more stores, and if we don't find anything, we can come back... So we went and shopped around. We ended up going to Rhodes Furniture. Tony immediately found a nice blue suede couch that was on sale for 500 dollars. The sales guy was away finding out about the couch, while Tony sat on it, and I continued to look around.

"Tony! Come here! These recline!!!" He rushed over sat down and decided he wanted a one of those. They were so comfortable! The one we were sitting on was a black leather sofa and the two ends reclined fully. But we didn't want leather. We asked the sales guy, once he found us, if they had any fabric ones. He showed us a tan suede sofa. We sat down, and it felt like we were on a big puffy cloud, and then reclined... and we were sold.

"The center pulls down also," the sales guy said. Tony immediately reached for it, and pulled it down. It had two cup holders and a deep tray. It is the nicest couch I have ever seen! We were so excited, but found out they didn't have any in stock in the store, so we had to wait for them to get some in from the Atlanta store... BUT it will be here on Saturday!!!

I'm so excited. Not just because it's a really nice couch, but because it's the first piece of furniture that we've bought new. Our first piece of furniture that has never been used, never sat on by anyone else... brand spankin new!!! And that's so exciting!

Our First Date

2005-08-13T23:59:00.000-04:00

In a loooooong time!
:D
It was so refreshing to get out, just the two of us, enjoying eachother's company. We originally were going to watch a movie, but weren't interested in anything showing. So, we decided to go bowling instead. I'm not good at bowling at all, but I had a blast. We played three games, the first one I won (I think Tony let me). Then we played three games of pool, which I suck at also, lol... You actually have to get out and practice to be good at either bowling or pool, which I don't get to. But tonight was great. We had sooo much fun, and I'm so grateful my grandparents watched Carlee. I really needed tonight! Now I'm tired, Good night!

Ticket Tuesday

2005-08-09T19:24:00.000-04:00

On the way to grab something quick to eat, the radio deejay was taking calls for "Ticket Tuesday." People call in and tell their stories of getting tickets from cops here in Jacksonville. Well, a guy tells his story:

The guy ran into the gas station, and as always left his truck running. But said he keeps his alarm thing in his pocket so that he can still lock it... As he was standing in line, an officer came in and said, "Whose S10 is that in the parking lot?"

"Mine, Officer."

"Well, you just got yourself a 150 dollar ticket."

"For what?"

"Leaving a vehicle running unattended," the cop answered. The guy proceeded to explain that he had the alarm thing in his pocket and that no one could get in it. The cop wouldn't hear any of it.

Then the gas station clerk piped up, "Hey, Officer, isn't that your cop car running out there? and in a handicap parking space no less?" The guy said everyone in the store busted out laughing, while the cop immediately slipped out the door without buying anything or giving the guy a ticket. LOL

So Much For That...

2005-08-08T16:17:00.000-04:00

We don't get to go to the concert... :(

They won't give Tony two FREAKIN days off! UGH!!! THEY SUCK! THEY SUCK! THEY SUCK SUCK SUCK!!!

and now comes the part of trying to sell our tickets... ugh!

thank you for letting me vent little blog... (and the few readers of my little blog)

Our Weekend

2005-08-08T11:18:00.000-04:00

This weekend was good. I had fun. On Saturday, Tony had to work, so I had planned on going geocaching with our friend Stress and his boys. Well, our friend PeeJay had told us he was interested in geocaching too, so I told him he should join us. So, he did. We drove to Palatka. We had planned on making a full day out of it, but I had the baby with us, and then Tony called and said he had gotten off of work early. So, we ended up leaving early, but we found 7 micros, and PeeJay said he liked geocaching, so that was cool.

Yesterday, Tony rearranged the living and dining rooms. We put the dining table out in the storage because we never use it. With that area empty, we moved the computer desk over there, and brought in my "craft" desk from storage. So, I'm really excited because I'm trying to get back into my scrapbooking. I've got to get started on Carlee's book! Anyway, the two rooms feel alot more spacious and less crowded. I like it alot.

Last night, we also took PeeJay out to dinner. He's officially free of their ship! yay! He's getting stationed in Miami though, so he won't be too far. So we'll definately have to go visit him once he gets settled in, and maybe do some caching too. :)

I'm not the only one wondering...

2005-08-08T11:01:00.000-04:00

My mom sent me this link to an article called Reading Your Baby's Mind. It's really interesting, and I'm glad I found out that I'm not the only one who thinks about weird things.

"Until a baby is 3 months old, he can recognize a scrambled photograph of his mother just as quickly as a photo in which everything is in the right place."

Now that is just awesome! And I wonder what this means for Baby Einstien once they're able to prove it:

"We all assumed that when infants stare at a television, and look engaged, that they are learning from it." Kuhl says there's plenty of work to be done to explain why that isn't true. "But at first blush one thinks that people—at least babies—need people to learn."

That'll teach me

2005-08-05T11:40:00.000-04:00

I didn't go by the store yesterday after caching like I had planned. I was too tired, and all I wanted to do was log our finds, take a shower, and take a nap with the baby (who was just as tired as me.) All I really needed right away were diapers, which I knew Carlee had enough to last until today, so I waited. Well, when we got up this morning it was raining... ugh. So I tried waiting it out, but I wanted to go and be back before everyone got out of work today since our building seems to be the only one with very limited parking spaces... (People usually get off early on Fridays and no one is considerate of those of us with children...) Anyway, so I fought with the umbrella, holding the baby, trying to keep the blanket over her, trying not to drop my keys, walking down the three flights of stairs, fumbling to unlock the car... Tried not to make Carlee mad as I put her in the carseat, and then I finally was able to start driving... got to the nearest store, fought with everything again from the car to the store, realized I forgot my coupon... decided it wasn't worth it to go back. Finally grabbed the diapers, and went straight to the checkout. Ugh, it's hard to hold a squirmy worm baby, slide my card, sign the paper, and then the bagger handed me the daipers in a bag, but in a way that I was only able to grab one handle, so the weight of the diapers pulled the bag down, almost dropping them on the floor. I had to swing the diapers up and quickly grab them with my arm/side all while still holding the baby of course. Oh, and the cashier kindly reminded me that even though this child camped out in my belly for nine months, therefore receiving half my genes, doesn't look like me at all... "She must look just like her daddy, she's so cute." yeah, thanks. Anyway, I finally made it home, fought with everything again, plus a big bag of diapers all the way up the stairs... ALMOST brought the open umbrella in the house, realized what I was doing, and then threw it on the porch... I had enough frustrations this morning already, I don't need any more bad luck!

today

2005-08-04T20:20:00.000-04:00

Tony had to go underway this morning. Only for a few days though. Carlee and I had a great fun day of caching!

Another Wierd Thought

2005-08-04T19:41:00.000-04:00

What do babies think when they don't have words to think in yet?

3:30 a.m.

2005-07-29T11:14:00.000-04:00

Carlee started to cry softly. It wasn't a mad cry, more like something woke her up, and she didn't like it. I reached over and rocked the bassinet a little. Usually, if she's not hungry, she falls right back to sleep.

I try not to pick her up right away because "The Book" says usually, they aren't even awake every time they cry, and if you pick them up, they wake up completely. I have found this to be true with Carlee, if I pick her up, it takes at least 30 to 40 minutes to get her to sleep again...

Well, the gentle rocking wasn't calming her, and the cries were getting a little louder and more frustrated. I sat up to pick her up, and out of nowhere Tony said, "Here, let me have her."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah, come here my little girl." So I handed her over, and laid down. Well, she kept crying. Whatever he was trying wasn't working.

"What's wrong?" I asked. Her cries got louder and more mad. "Tony, what's wrong?" I asked a couple of more times. No answer. I opened my eyes. Tony was peacefully sleeping, nice and warm, oblivious to the baby who was crying behind me in the bassinet still.

"Oh, that's what's wrong," I said as I laughed at my exhausted self and picked Carlee up to calm her.

This Morning

2005-07-28T11:26:00.000-04:00

Carlee and I went for a walk. It only lasted for thirty minutes, but it's a big thing for me since I haven't really been doing as much exercise as I should. Anyway, it was a nice walk around the parking lot, not too hot. Carlee slept almost the whole time.

While walking I noticed that the apartments paid to get new mulch put down all over the whole complex. Geez, I hope the money "they had to scrape up" in order to clean the mold off our three flights of stairs didn't come out of the "new mulch for the complex money." Because you know how dangerous old mulch is!!! Someone could fall and break their neck!!!

It's about time they put new mulch down!!!

Society Says

2005-07-27T21:21:00.000-04:00

Stay at home moms don't work... phsh. I wish. Ha. I'm exhuasted, and it's only 9:20 pm. I sometimes feel so much older than my age, oh well, I never was much of a party girl anyway. Carlee is a full time job, twice over. I don't get a break. I hope I don't sound like I'm complaining, I'm just tired. I'd like to go to sleep already, but she's wide awake. We've been up since early this morning, and while she took naps on me, I blogged and surfed the internet because I couldn't go to sleep. I almost took her for a walk today, but ugh, the weather was really hot... I thought about keeping the car too, to maybe go geocaching, just me and Carlee. But I talked myself out of it. It's too dangerous... I'd make an easy target, and there's always something bad happening around here... I'm still a small town Tx girl that hasn't yet adjusted to living in this huge city.... that's all. Have a good night ya'll.